270. Should We Trust Prophecies?

e_njrv9hre-felipe-santanaI was on a city tour today and heard about this New Years tradition from a certain culture that you cut an apple and if there are many seeds that means prosperity for the next year, but if the apple has no seeds that means illness and/or death.

So I was looking at this point of fortune telling, how people give absolute faith and trust in to the fortune or the messages they receive from prophets or psychics or objects (like tea reading, tarot cards, etc). But what if you receive bad news or information about something unfortunate that will happen to you – how will you react? Will you let this news affect you?

Because I was looking at those people who would go into absolute terror or fright upon seeing they got no seeds in their apple, that they would believe the next year will be an unfortunate one unless they challenge that prophecy.

Like if you are diagnosed with a disease, and the doctor says you have 3 months to live – some people take it literally and seriously, and just accept it as so – while others challenge that information / predication and not accept it. They know it is possible to live despite the news. And so, these people in some way, walk the path or find the solutions needed to prove the doctor’s prediction as wrong.  And there are hundreds of these stories of people who have healed themselves / cured themselves from terminal diseases — because they didn’t accept it and allowed themselves to be influenced by the original information / prediction.

So what if we realize we can challenge the ideas and information we receive about our lives and ourselves? What if we drop the fears of the future and focus on who we are now and what we’d like to create, and build ourselves every day into the person we’d like to be and live, in the here/now and future?

I will continue more tomorrow. Thanks for reading!

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

 

 

269. Suppressing vs. Responding

4jpbgzpsnzs-jake-melaraOne of the key points I am taking away from EQAFE’s recording Time is the Present We Gift Ourselves – Part 3 is on suppression and the impact it has on your self, body and life.

I see I am allowing suppressions to exist in me, a pattern I have accepted and allowed to live and become through my family. Most specifically in regards to fears, or points coming up that I feel unable to direct and handle. This is because I have yet to find a way to handle/direct these points. And it’s so easy to just suppress/shove the point away, deceiving yourself temporarily in the belief that it’s not there anymore and won’t come up again, but it does come up in some way or another as an indication that this point needs to be faced, directed and resolved.  

From this, the word RESPOND comes up — how do I RESPOND when fears/points come up in me, and is this a supportive RESPONSE?

A fear I don’t know / have the skill or ability to handle / direct: My Response = Suppress it

So I see that when fears/points I have not yet handled or found a way/solution to direct come up, I RESPOND by shoving and suppressing them, because that is a behavior I accepted and allowed from what I picked up from family and so, this suppression-response has become an automated pattern in me. However, I know the consequences of this – the more I suppress/deny/hide/shove the fears, the more the suppressions will build in me and it will come out in other ways – perhaps through not sleeping well, or panic attacks, or emotional outbursts, and in worst cases, illness and dis-ease.

The best way forward I see for me is to create my Response of fears/points from Suppressing to Embracing, and from that Embracing, Respond to what I need to do to direct / change myself from it. 

So, instead of suppressing a point/fear, embrace/take the point/fear and look at how to best handle it (ie: do I need to write/open it up to understand it more, do I need to do research, do I need to talk to someone, do I need to walk self-forgiveness, etc). Because each point is individual/unique, it requires it’s own unique/individual response / way of being handled / directed and changed.

So I am going to play with this point – to instead of suppressing the point, embrace it, understand it, see what needs to be developed to change it, so it no longer haunts me or direct me anymore. 

A fear I don’t know / have the skill or ability to handle / direct: My New Response = Embrace it, Understand it, Find what I need to Develop to Direct / Change myself from it, and Live the Change

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

268. Emotional Manipulation vs. Being Self-Aware

alnqdp3b3yu-naomi-augustI’ve been working and practicing becoming more aware on Emotional Manipulation – in myself and to others. And it is really sad and shameful to see how much of this pattern I’ve allowed to exist and influence me…Like in my relationship to my partner where through my facial movements and tonalities I can see how I try to move/persuade/manipulate my partner to do something or be a certain way.

Upon realizing how I live this pattern today, it was quite shocking and I wanted to avoid seeing this as it is quite  nasty, uncomfortable part I exist in, but also quite a gift because now I see how much of this pattern is me and has been with me for quite some time, so I can actually start changing it.

How I started to open up the point of Emotional Manipulation came from a week where it felt like everything in me became unsteady, emotional and intense. I had for some time been able to move and stabilize and take responsibility of points when they come up, and redefine words, but then it became difficult, I became difficult to direct me.

This is because my mind to an extent saw I was becoming good at moving and directing myself – really becoming directive principle, so it had to up its game. According to the Emotional Victimization series by the Atlanteans, when the mind sees you are becoming ”too good” at directing yourself and your emotions, it will up its game to make you fall back into being its slave. Well, it did a pretty good job throwing out all these intense emotional experiences and thoughts in me – and unfortunately at that time I did not understand why or could see it coming – the Mind can be so sneaky and clever – so I got lost in the experiences until I sought help through EQAFE.com to help me understand what is going on.

And lo and behold, through the Emotional Victimization interviews I discovered so much more about myself and my relationship to thoughts and emotions, and from this got to understand more on how I emotionally manipulate myself and how that effects me, my life and my relationships around me. It was a good wake up call for me because I got to uncover a very serious and detrimental pattern that is the foundation of self-sabotage, a pattern that needs to be stopped and corrected in me.

And it is also interesting to mention that even before writing this blog I went into the emotions of ”I don’t know what to write about!” but I caught this immediately – emotional manipulation – my own creation was coming up by throwing these justifications and tantrums, but as the interviews said – do not allow yourself to give in to that – stand by your decision to not accept and allow your thoughts and emotions to manipulate YOU. This was a biggie for me – the importance of sticking to yourself, your stand of not being wavered or moved by the thoughts and emotional experiences inside but to move/direct you according to what is best for you in principle.

It is still a point I am practicing – strengthening my stand to not be moved by my thoughts and emotions, but to stand up with me and what I stand for – which is to be directive principle of myself, within the principles of oneness and equality – that which is best for all. It is super empowering to be able to stand with you and your decision to not accept and allow yourself to be emotionally manipulated by your own thoughts and experiences.

 

 

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

 

 

267. Clearing Judgements on People Who Drop out of School

photo-1417577792096-106a2c4e353dI noticed family programming in me that I accepted and allowed to exist and influence who I am when it comes to career and education…

I grew up in a household where education and going to college is important. You basically have no choice and must go to college, or else you will get hounded and judged by family, and it is actually looked down upon in my family and with my other aunts and uncles, so it is also an ego/image point that family members maintain by making sure their children follow through in going to school / college– because it’s all about looking good in front of the family.

This means that if you drop out or go an alternative route, this will not good look in the eyes of family. This is looked down upon, and you look low-class / less than what you should be / look like.

It’s really screwed up because that means we define each other by education and status instead of who one is, as a human being / beingness expression. Especially when it is in family, which is meant to be an intimate, safe group for individuals to develop and grow, this is not the case in real life when survival, ego and status is more important than the individual and their potential. Quite sad, but there is that potential in all of us to change.

Self-Forgiveness:

Judgement on dropping out / not finishing college* (*University can also be used instead of college)

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who drop out of college

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and label people who drop out of college as bad

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question what does it mean to be a bad person, and does it really make/define someone as bad if they drop out of school? I realize how limited I am in defining who or what someone is bad based on a decision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look down upon people who drop out of college or not finish school

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disgusted by people who drop out of college or do not complete school by thinking they are scum and should be ashamed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect people who drop out of school to those who work in fast food restaurants or clean toilets for a living, and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and see people less than me who work in fast food restaurants or clean toilets because the job they do is not favorable and also looked down in society

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that those who drop out of college / don’t finish school are disgusting and scum and should be disregarded

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am better and have the right to judge people who drop out of college or don’t finish college instead of seeing, realizing and understanding there are many reasons and factors as to why someone drops out / does not finish, so best to understand them than judging them so quickly

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that college is not for everyone in this world, and that just because someone doesn’t go to college or drops out of it does not make them anymore less than everyone else on this planet. It simply indicates that they made a choice and there is no need to judge them on this choice since the choice is made by each one individually

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see and believe people who drop out / don’t finish college are weak and are someone to look down upon in shame, instead of realizing how I have no right to do this / be this and actually I should be the one shamed because I do not in fact know the reasons and factors as to why this person dropped out / did not finish school yet I judge so quickly and think of myself as better than them for it

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that just because someone didn’t finish school / dropped out does not make them less than me, and –

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the other person as less than me / not good enough in my mind when I think about how they didn’t finish school / dropped out of college, where in my mind I place them a level below me and I look down at them from a level above

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand equal and humble with the person who dropped out of college / did not finish school and support them as much as I would want to be supported in this life

We are so quick to judge than understanding others for the decisions they make. Let’s start the stopping of judgements and shift our focus in understanding and helping each other develop into our utmost potentials.

I commit myself to live in humbleness instead of superiority when I am with people I typically react in superiority towards and get to know these people so I can see more of who one is

I commit myself to understand the reasons and factors behind why a person dropped out of college / school within understanding and humbleness

I commit myself to remind me that just because someone drops out of college does not mean that they are less than me because we are all equal here on this planet, regardless of education and status. We are all living human beings sharing this planet together

I commit myself to realize and remind myself that another’s decision to drop out of school does NOT define them who they are totally – and that who they are is much more than this decision

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Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

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268. How to Support Yourself When You Have a Cold

photo-1447154705288-7175737fb73cI developed a pretty nasty cold that left me quite tired and weak the last few days. I knew there was an EQAFE recording on the nature of Colds/Flus so I made sure to listen to it the day I stayed home from work.

‘’The Evolution of the Common Cold’’ by the Future of Consciousness is a fascinating recording that highlights the dimensions of these particular viruses and why they are becoming stronger and longer lasting in humanity.  I was able to gain support on what mind dimensions to specifically work on when I have a cold or flu, and how to support oneself physically during this time.

It was most interesting when the being in the recording mentioned the typical excuses we make when sick like ‘’Oh I’m too sick to do writing, or self-forgiveness,’’ and how this is not so because our beingness, which is buried deep down within us and suppressed by our Mind Consciousness System is not sick, is still intact and able to be supported with the necessary Self-Forgiveness, Writing and Self-Corrective Application. 

This ordeal reminded me of my teenager years, when I was sick I would use the time to watch tons of TV and justify this was ok because ‘’I’m sick.’’ There is also the emotional dimension of going into self-pity, feeling sorry for yourself and existing in a victimized state which was also mentioned by Kristina through her blog, where you want to ask others to do things for you because you are ‘’so sick,’’ or ‘’can’ do it,’’ when you know you are capable to an extent.

So I’d like to thank EQAFE for it’s support on the recording.  Being sick is actually a great time to work with emotional memories and points that have been emphasized the last couple of months, and best to sort them out during your sick-period due so that way when/if you get a cold or flu again, it will not be so intense as before.

So, coming from watching tons of TV and becoming needy around people when sick, I shifted my focus more on taking care of myself through giving my physical body the nutrition and medicinal support it needs as well as the self care for my self/beingness with the self-purification tools of writing, forgiveness, self-corrective applications, and living words.

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

 

 

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267. Locked up and How to Get out

photo-1476546516819-c57acd71045cI had a dream last night that I got access into an American government facility and found out that they’ve locked up this alien / creature from another planet for decades. I had lots of fears towards this point I’d like to bring it out in the open with Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be terrified of aliens through the idea aliens only want to harm us / humanity which I have gathered from movies and alien-conspiracy theories and stories, forming and creating fears towards them in my mind instead of considering how I am locking myself within fear / paranoia toward the point instead of common sense reasoning that I am here, and I have the ability and control of me and my mind, who I am and what I accept and allow within me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear having an alien be locked up by/from the American government due to the other fear that if released they are going to kill those around them or destroy humanity instead of seeing behind all of this is fear and paranoia are ideas that aliens will do this if free on this earth – all of this coming from movies instead of cross-referencing with myself if this is what I should put my energy and focus towards since I realize what is of utmost importance is who I am within what I am doing in my life

I realize it was through movies and alien abduction stories I became fearful of aliens and what they have done or could do to us, instead of doing proper research through Desteni and EQAFE on what the relationship / status is with aliens for real now.

I realize within the principle of equality and oneness, aliens/foreign species are not separate nor higher / better than me in fact – they are simply another form of existing/being

I commit myself to ground my relationship with aliens / alien species through proper research on EQAFE and Desteni

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to speak up for the alien in my dream, questioning the caretakers on how it is being treated, standing with and for the life of the alien, despite who the alien could be – it is equal to the life I have in me

I commit myself to shift my focus to seeing and realizing the life that is in me is in each living thing that is here, and that I should stand up for that life / potential in all of us, especially when I see it is being suppressed / caged / locked up. This in itself is empowering for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear towards the alien being treated like or less than an animal caged up in a zoo – with no consideration of who that animal / alien is and what would be best for them, not seeing, realizing and understanding how this representation of an alien / animal locked up from humans represents points where I lock myself up in ways within my mind

What terrified me the most in the dream was the thought of the alien locked in the box having to exist in torment and suffering for years upon years with no way out, they are for as long as possible in this box, and the humans around them probably find enjoyment in that, maybe abuse it, and/or don’t care about the creature.

Looking at my relationship with my body and mind – who I am and the mind, doesn’t my body deal with the torment and suffering of what I allow my mind to do to it through my participation in consciousness of thoughts, emotional experiences, etc… instead of standing equal to and one with my body/the life source since participating in consciousness actually harms the body since the mind has to source physical energy from the body / physical life source to create consciousness energy and continue it’s existence.

Isn’t this abuse also what we see on an external / global level with animal abuse, forests being cut down for palm oil, pollution – physical consequences of harming the Earth because we are doing the same to ourselves and our bodies — keeping us locked in with our thoughts, emotions, backchats, internal conversations – a cycle of self-abuse, self-enslavement instead of self-freedom and equality with the physical body. Gosh, that’s tough to see and hear. But necessary, cause this is the only way we can change and free ourselves.

Then aren’t I locking myself in a cage when I don’t direct my thoughts, emotions, feelings, backchats, internal conversations, energetic experiences – thinking and believing these limitations and self-definitions are who I am and will always be?

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I am the locked up creature I fear every time I participate in self-definitions, beliefs, ideas, thoughts, emotional experiences from me as my consciousness because I am caging myself like an animal in a zoo in self-limitation and dis-empowerment instead of setting myself free by facing each consciousness point, understanding it, forgiving it, seeing the common sense / realizations / who I really and changing myself though self-corrective application and / or words

I commit myself to remember that every consciousness point that comes up within me is a signal for me to take responsibility to change. If I don’t know HOW to direct a consciousness point, I either write about it to understand and find the solution, or do research, or talk to someone (my DIP buddy, the Desteni forum, the Portal, etc).

I commit myself to assist and support me in this journey to Life which is actually the journey to self-freedom from the mind consciousness system by understanding exactly how my mind works, how to walk through it, and walk through it to finally release myself from the systems of the mind into a real, free being

 

EQAFE interview for support on this topic:

Aliens Speaking

Mind as the Reverse of the Physical

Sound Frequency Implants

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships

266. Creating a Better Relationship – Doing the Dishes

photo-1478473495191-2d8dd1398896So my problem is I don’t like doing dishes and overall cleaning of the kitchen as a part of my job position’s responsibility.

I think it is too much – I get angry over it – I complain about it – and I find it unfair

When I wash the dishes, and put away the cutlery/silverware, wash the buckets, clean the blue bowls and sponges, putting the glass jugs in the washing machine, washing/cleaning the bowls from the school kitchen, sometimes even putting up chairs – I complain, I get angry, I don’t like it.

I understand I don’t like it, but it’s no excuse to go into the mind and to get interested in there, getting comfortable in there. That is when it becomes a problem – when I take a back seat in my mind and let the conscious thoughts and concerns swirl in my head. That is showing that I would rather enjoy and indulge in my mind, which is an illusionary reality that is only a distraction from what’s here, that also (through my allowance) take moments away from me, expressing me in the physical.

A resistance and personal unhappiness to washing dishes, and all the other specific kitchen work that was listed: I don’t like doing this, I don’t want to do this, why me, this is unfair… -internal conversations, preference, judgement, self-victimization, self-pity, helplessness, righteousness, anger

I don’t like doing this – preference, judgment, ungrateful

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in preference with my job – where I make a statement ‘’I don’t like doing this,’’ within personal preference instead of considering that this is what I signed up for when I knew of this job position, therefore there is no point to complain since it was my decision to take on the responsibilities of the job position. Therefore, I realize the importance of making peace with this job responsibility because it is solely for the assistant, unless another teacher wants to help/take over the responsibility.

I commit myself to make peace with my job responsibility, knowing and acknowledging full well that I DECIDED AND KNEW of what this responsibility entailed, AND that I originally WELCOMED the job responsibility because it was a break from the children and quiet. Therefore, my preference of whether I like it or not does not matter because what matters is the physical responsibility needed for the kitchen in the kindergarten. I simply remind myself this is what I accepted as a responsibility and I can make the best out of it – I can listen to a recording, or do SF, I can when and as I am cleaning, do something with and for me that will support me in my life’s journey.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my job responsibility of cleaning the kitchen negatively by saying ‘’I don’t like doing this,’’ instead of ‘’womening up’’ and seeing the job for what it is – a kitchen with lots of dirty dishes and cutlery that requires to be washed for tomorrow’s lunch – simply as that and that any form of complaining or judgement of I don’t want to do this is not excuses nor allowed

I commit myself to take my job responsibility seriously by stopping the judgment, and complaining and simply using the opportunity I have with the dishes, to be with me and walk through any consciousness-relationship points

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful for the opportunity to gain more money for working in the kitchen and the additional responsibilities that come with it because I know that I have an elitist job, compared to jobs and conditions other people like me exist in around the world

I commit myself to live in humbleness with my job position- utilizing where I am and wht I can do to create me into a better person

I don’t want to do this – preference, judgement, snobby/better than, anger with justifications

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect anger to the thought I don’t want to do this, and within this use justifications like ‘’I am tired’’ and ‘’this is not fair’’ to validate this anger

I commit myself to not allow the thought I don’t want to do this and participate in anger. Instead, I stop, breathe and remind me that yes, maybe I dont want to do it now, but it needs to get done – so I decide when it needs to get done – but it needs to get done today/tonight. The word here is being ASSERTIVE with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify that I don’t want to do this by saying something like I am tired, or this is not fair, not realizing how shit that is compared to what NEEDS to be DONE in reality – which is to wash the dishes and cutlery, etc

I commit myself to challenge each justification and see the bullshit that they really are – such as ‘’I am tired’’ or ‘’this is not fair,’’

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how much of a snob I sound like when I say I don’t want to do this- it is as if I am better than doing that. I realize that doing dishes/cleaning the kitchen does not make one look better or worse but simply shows what needs to be done. I see in my words I make it seem like I am better than doing dishes – that doing dishes is LOWER than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and place belief that doing dishes in a school setting makes one look low in the system because workers in the school system do not get paid as much as the teachers and administrators, so in a way, yes lower in terms of paycheck/money gains, but not lower in equality as a being interconnected with all beings on this planet.

I commit myself to live humbleness doing dishes, washing them as me, being here with me and the dishes I wash, enjoying the water, the soap on my hands – staying present in enjoyment as much as possible

Additional Resources:

Journey to Life Blogs – Walking the 7 Year Journey to Life

School of Ultimate Living – Life Creation through Words

DIP Lite – Free Self-Development Course

EQAFE.com – Self-Perfection Merchandise

Relationship Course – Redefining Relationships